Sad

I don't understand why there are people who look at the past and hurt our feeling.is it because they think that I am bad? It is hurt when someone talk about the pass as I don't want it to happen a well.Months have pass but there are still people who blame me that I had simply wanted to fail my exam.I wonder which crazy people who would want to fail in their exams and would study in the same time.If I would have decided that I would simply fail my exam I am sure that I would not pay the exam fees as it is not cheap and I know how my parents got the money for me.I know that there are doubt in parents to sent me to study as they are worry that I would want to waste their money.I don't want that to happen as well.I am hurt very hurt and honestly I am jealous to see my friends who have the chance to study easily but I have so much of problem.

First,I believe if there is money everything will be fine but I am not from rich family and I realise that.

Not only that I know there are people who are talking behind my back with and without my knowledge and that's the reason I am keeping myself away from many family gathering and I am sure the next family gathering will be in Xmas and there are people who I knew would ask me and talk to me what I am going to do next.

So please don't be surprise if I am missing and don't ask my parents about me as they are not happy with me.
Like my dad..when I told him that I will be doing H&T in KDU next year he ask me what about law.Is not that I never Tell him before that I going to change my course but they still expect me to do law.

I know is hard and is hard for me as well because I got to miss around with those people who are younger than me and strangers that I will studying together next year.

My life is so much of pain...