My Story

Many people looked at me and they may think that I am happy with the way I am right now.But the fact is that I am not happy at all.The happiness that show on my face is just a fake smile on me.I am suffering inside and I could kill myself as I could feel the pain in my chest.

Is not that I don't want to study but how could I do it? Is not that I don't want take ptptn but I mus settle the previous payment and then only I could apply a new loan on ptptn.I am not from a rich family who get everything that I want.People think that I don't want but in the same time I must understand my parents situation as they not only feeding me but my two brothers as well.

I cannot talk about my problem to anyone as no one could help me when money is involve.I have been crying and I hate it so much.I don't want to feel this way.I don't want to be a failure and I want everyone to be happy.Is not that I simply do want I want and hurt everyone around me.

Touch my heart and ask myself where are all my ptptn money.I have the answer but should I tell it out.You all have spent for me so I am not complaining.Who don't want to get married? I do want to be with you.But I am helpless right now.

I really wish I could get money I do what I want right now.Rob a bank if I can.There are lucky people who are born rich and get what they want and could do what they want but I am not to be born rich and that's the reason why I have so much of pain in me.

I myself know that I am not the happy girl that I use to be before.